Principal. Mother. Tired.: March 2020

Whoa.

Was.not.ready.

I know this echoes the sentiments of many. Watching COVID-19 going down in China and then Italy seemed distant enough to be considered "their" problems, not mine. But then the emails from my district starting coming in. Then conference calls.

Texts. Emails. Phone calls. Texts. Emails. Phone calls. Repeat.

Fast forward one month and here I am:
Mother of 3 at home with my boys. Not sure when (IF!) my school will be back in session before August. Not allowed to leave my house unless it's "essential." Essential??

Like, walking around Target looking at everything essential? Or my leg has been severed and I need it reattached essential?

Hm. I don't like it.

I thrive on busy. I thrive on problem solving. Schedules. Routines. Complaining about problem solving, having schedules, routines and BEING TOO BUSY!

Not having these things throws me into so much anxiety.

"Enjoy this time with your family."

Can't.

"Take the time to accomplish goals you create."

Nope.

"This is only temporary."

Is it though? Because right now, my world is rocked. I keep checking my phone: Facebook, CNN, KCRA, San Juan Unified, Facebook, CNN, KCRA, San Juan Unified...potentially being holed up and home schooling for 4 months...or MORE?! What the what???

I'm in a spiral - a cycle. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to go to bed and sleep until it's all over.

Just as I'm about to rip my hair and eyeballs out, I have to be so very intentional about distraction.

Things that make me laugh because they are stupid. And as my public service, I will share some of these go-to distractions with you.*

I present to you...(links included! You're welcome.)

*Advisory: to appreciate any of these, you must understand and share in my sense of humor: sometimes dark, sometimes/mostly sarcastic, and very likely immature (but not like JackAss immature).

"Quasi-Definitive List of Resources
to distract you from COVID-19 Anxiety"